Letting Go

Tonight, I am letting go. I will admit that there is still a part of me that wants to hold on, but why hold on to something that I am not even sure exists anymore? I owe it to myself to let go... for my dignity, my self-worth, my integrity. I am letting go of expectations... I was genuinely looking forward to see where things were headed, but that doesn't appear to have been enough to make things last. I have always been a dreamer, but I have no more time for games. I am confused as all hell, but waiting in hope for an explanation, an answer, that may never come seems like a foolish way to live, and life is far too precious to waste it away thinking about things beyond my control. I did the best that I could, and if that wasn't enough, then it really wasn't meant to be.

I have no regrets, but there comes a time when change must occur in order to move forward, and onward I must go. There are just some moments in life that you just cannot prepare yourself for, and the best that you can do is just take it in stride, accept the lesson you have been given, and trust in your ability to adapt and continue living your life. I am tired of being the runner-up; I deserve better than this. No need to dwell any further on the thought of what I might have missed out on; you missed out, too. I am also letting go of my anger, for it does nothing but keep me down, and anyone that really knows me knows that I cannot and will not stay down for too long. Hatred only fosters more hatred, and I choose love always. No matter how disappointed I might be, I will harbor no ill-will... what would be the point in that? It didn't have to end this way, but it did, and I accept that now. I am still ME, and that is all that matters.

Farewell, my friend, whoever and wherever you may be; I wish you all the best in life. As fleeting as it was, it was good while it lasted. Tonight, I set you free... and I set myself free. I am on a new path, moving forward as I always have.